Relatives’ memoirs revealed that Michael Jackson cried a lot, had a premonition of death and feared that his assets would be taken by bad guys.

From his illustrious contributions to the music industry to his turbulent personal life, Michael Jackson has become a legend of global pop culture for more than four decades.

‘My brother had a premonition of death’
“June 25, 2009 – the saddest day of my life, a day I will never forget”, La Toya Jackson sadly shared on Access Hollywood.

Two years after Michael Jackson’s death, the Heart Don’t Lie singer still couldn’t get over the pain. Therefore, on June 21, 2011, she published her memoir Starting Over, revealing the shocking truth about her brother’s state of mind in the final days of his life.

Somewhere in the 352 pages, she describes Michael as losing control of his words. He had several premonitions of death, confiding: “La Toya, you will be killed for your music catalogue (a catalogue of more than 750,000 songs) and the money you earn.”

The King of Pop’s confessions made La Toya think forever. She suspected that her brother was paranoid about being controlled by someone else’s finances, but on the other hand, the singer kept asking the question: “Who wants to kill Michael?”.

At that time, her answer was aimed at Murray – the doctor who was close to Michael Jackson. In the end, her assertion was correct when the Los Angeles Court declared that this doctor must serve 4 years in prison for “involuntarily causing the death of Michael Jackson”, when the male singer overdosed on the anesthetic painkiller propofol.

“I really believe that Conrad Murray was forced into this situation. I think it’s too easy to blame him,” La Toya said.

Also in the memoir, La Toya said Paris Jackson once confided that her father cried a lot before he died, and always felt cold around him.

When her brother took his last breath, La Toya found a note in his bedroom. In it, Michael wrote to his father, Joe Jackson, saying: “Get these people out of my life.”

According to La Toya, Michael loved his family but was especially strict with his children. The Jackson children were only allowed to attend one educational program and were never given any information about him. Michael was also meticulous in choosing the music for his children to enjoy.

“Michael only allowed Paris to listen to the song Butterflies that Kolohe Kai wrote for her,” La Toya recalls.

Brother doesn’t want Michael Jackson near Whitney Houston
Also in 2011, but already in early fall, Jermaine Jackson decided to introduce the book You Are Not Alone : ​​Through a Brother’s Eyes .

The memoir, published by Touchstone, is Jermaine’s heartfelt confession about his talented but ill-fated brother.

“Michael was the role model every father should be,” he wrote. “He passed on the love of a mother and a father to his children.” In his brother’s eyes, Michael was always an irreplaceable icon in the music industry.

The “father” of the moonwalk had his own private space that no one could enter. From his brother’s perspective, Jermaine felt that in that place, Michael could be himself – an artist who sublimated wildly with music, then reserved the low notes for the storms that had passed.

Jermane is not happy that his brother is in contact with the famous diva.
Taking this opportunity, Jermaine also mentioned his troubled love story with the legendary Whitney Houston. He wrote: “Sometimes I lost myself because of these feelings. I told her to wait. In the end, we went our separate ways.”

The deep affection between the two was one of the reasons why Jermane had to warn his brother to stay away from Whitney. This was also the rare time that the family revealed that Michael once had feelings for the I Will Always Love You singer.

“We don’t want Michael’s life to be a secret forever,” Jermaine said.

On Goodreads , many readers rated You Are Not Alone: ​​Through a Brother’s Eyes as providing an authentic look at Michael’s life, his struggles, triumphs, tragedies, and the talented star’s love for his family.

“The book fills in the blanks of unanswered questions, such as who was Michael Jackson? How did he become a superstar? How did he deal with the storms of public opinion over the past decades,” commented one reader.

‘I believe Michael Jackson was not a pedophile’
Sentenced to four years in prison, Conrad Murray was released two years early due to good behavior. In 2016, this doctor revealed a lot of information about Michael Jackson in his autobiography This Is It!: The Secret lives of Dr. Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson.

Conrad said he was very concerned because Michael was obsessed with marrying his goddaughter, after a long time of love when she was only 5 years old.

People close to Michael also said that the Heal the World singer was especially interested in Conrad’s son, to the point that the male singer kept a portrait of the baby on his bedside table and piano so he could look at it every day.

“When my wife found out, she didn’t allow Michael to be alone with the baby anymore,” the doctor recounted.

The pedophilia scandal has not left Michael Jackson alone even after more than a decade of his death.
In the book, Conrad recalls discovering a collection of child pornography in Michael’s Neverland Ranch apartment. He confirms that the pop superstar loved to collect dolls, but insists that Michael never used them for pornographic purposes because he was afraid.

“When I saw that picture, I thought to myself, ‘Oh my God, what are they doing?’ This is just a joke. If you go into Michael’s bedroom, there are many dolls and pictures of children that fans gave him. Besides, there are countless dolls that Michael bought and collected himself,” Conrad said.

Another fact that continues the story is that the King of Pop was very interested in women who were as skinny as skeletons. However, Michael did not want to date the girls but simply saw them as entertainment.

Remembered for his role as Michael’s personal physician, Conrad proudly declared that their relationship was so close that it was like soul mates.

“At the end of his life, I was the only friend the King of Pop had. We used to go around Las Vegas in disguise, looking for women to entertain. One time, I dressed up and he pretended to walk with a limp to play the role of someone who had had a stroke. Another time, he dressed up as a clown.”

One by one, Conrad exposed the idol’s entire interests and wild lifestyle. But when it came to the shocking secret that Michael had been chemically castrated by his biological father to maintain his high-pitched singing voice, many readers doubted the authenticity of the story.

Mr. Joseph Jackson is famous for loving his children very much. Throughout all those years, he always stood behind and watched his son succeed and was described as a shadow following Michael’s every step from the peak of glory to the times when his son fell due to scandal.

Therefore, it is very unlikely that Joseph Jackson would think so cruelly towards his own child.

Conrad Murray’s book has been criticized as a hoax.
J. Randy Taraborrelli, a close friend of Michael’s, once affirmed: “I taught Michael so I knew he had a natural high voice. Michael could sing as low as the low C note of a bass, but he still liked to sing higher, as high as he could because a pop tenor always has a wider range to create his own style.”

Many loyal fans after reading this book firmly believe that Conrad Murray was “narcissistic” about himself and his true relationship with the king of pop.

The pleas of not being convicted of manslaughter in This Is It!: The Secret lives of Dr. Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson were also seen as redundant, as Conrad had already served 2 years in prison for this sentence.